Go Your Own Way

Bloged in , , by m. Wednesday January 29, 2003

Spinning: Fleetwood Mac – Best


… If I could / Maybe I’d give you my world / How can I / When you won’t take it from me /
You can go your own way / Go your own way / You can call it / Another lonely day /
You can go your own way / Go your own way… /

Amazing how certain heads fail to impress us and have further power upon us as soon as their image begins to vanish. How does the saying go? “Out of sight, out of mind?” A certain individual made a cameo appearance by my office today. It was one of those perfect soap opera moments, where the protagonist –whose love was never recognised or requited� is having a great moment, laughing and joking, and the ex-object of their affection walks in unannounced. Suddenly the room makes a pause to see if the former will react to the latter’s presence, but he/she remains cooler than Antarctica and acknowledges the other’s existence with a mere “hello.” A hello that says plenty of things which are better left unsaid. Things that don’t need to be shown anymore. Things that existed but became extinct with the passing of days, weeks, and months in a lonely bed. Suddenly the former loser becomes the unexpected winner… and the winner takes it all.

And so it goes, the quick visit failed to have a major effect upon me. I no longer felt depressed; I no longer wondered what if and why not; I no longer cared to know anything about this person. Their universe and mine are many light years away from each other, even though we’re only separated by a few walls and cubicles. I moved on and cheered my folks, who were having one of the best sales days in a long while. We broke a couple of records in certain areas and it felt just right. I was winning. They were winning. We won. And the winner takes it all.

And on a different note, February is always my favourite month. Why, someone might ask. Well, it is a month full of culture and plenty of things to do in Miami, and this year I will be one busy fella. First of all, we have my lady Erykah Badu in concert next Sunday (the 9th). The tickets have been waiting for me for a little while. I am excited about this one. Hopefully my old acquaintances from the record label will be able to get me a pass to the backstage area, so that I can chill for a little while with this amazing woman and performer. The show will be at the always very trendy Level. I still don’t know if there will be an opening act, but I don’t care. Erykah is just enough for my ear, mind, and soul.

Next up, is Tori Amos on the 19th of February. And if you know me, you know the kind of Tori fan / freak that I have been for a decade and counting. I have seen this lady way too many times and at many different venues. She never ceases to amaze me. I will be going with my lil’ sis’ and a couple of heads from work. This will be another highlight in my cold February.

Lastly, there is the Miami Film Festival, which takes off on the 21st. We have been members and sponsors since 1996 and the festival seems to get better with each year that passes. The movie line-up for 2003 is quite interesting, and there will be a couple of after-parties that require a little visit. I guess I will be entertained for the next few weeks.

Another form of entertainment –of a less sublime nature– that I have discovered is American Idol (I plugged it last night and I’ll do it again today). Some of these contestants make you want to kick them straight in the face. Dang! Some of these egos are more inflated than the economy in Argentina. I dislike that Emily chick, as she has shown a nasty side in her personality that eclipses her vocal talent. The two girls who did the duet (the slightly Reubenesque ones) have some vocal power that demands recognition. All of the guys are a bunch of wankers; none of them has impressed me thus far. Maybe I will change my mind as the competition develops.

Hey, The Wankers, that would be a brilliant name for a band or a song title. Maybe I will audition for AI3 next year as Milo the Wanka’. Oh wait, I’m a year over the limit… forget it… I don’t have a voice at any rate.

And with all this rubbish said, I must turn away and prepare tomorrow’s presentation for school…

Hey Jupiter

Bloged in by m. Tuesday January 28, 2003

Spinning: Tori Amos – Boys For Pele |


No one’s picking up the phone / guess it’s me and me / and this little masochist /
she’s ready to confess / all the things that I never thought / that she could feel and /
hey Jupiter / nothing’s been the same / so are you gay / are you blue /
thought we both could use a friend / to run to… /

Day off from work… wasted day… sleep till noon… read a book… clean the shelves… watch American Idol… I hated the British version of the show and never got to see an episode of the first American season… now I’m becoming hooked on reality TV…

Not like anyone cares, but I updated the about me area of this site; new data has been added and even a picture has been posted for net folks to criticise! You know how I am about posting my ugly ass on the net, but I figured that a face should be associated with the man and his legend. Additionally, I [finally] fixed a few details on this layout to make it fully compatible with all resolutions �I still wonder why some folks would use that ugly 800×600 view, but I can only explain my own taste. Furthermore, I updated the singles list on the side (the titles lead to an individual page with lyrics and �if you search well� an mp3 file in some instances). You can definitely say that I was bored today. But I prefer being bored and at home, than busy and annoyed at the office… even though I’m going to have to work on Saturday.

Oh, and before I close this entry and just in case you don’t recognise them, the lyrics above come from Tori Amos‘ song “Hey Jupiter.” Please note that the word “gay” in this context is one that refers to happiness, not sexual orientation. So don’t start making assumptions or asking dumb questions, someone did that before and I am nor interested in explaining why and how I like both chicks and lads. That’s just too complex �apparently� for some heads. With all that said and nothing further to contribute, Bisu buh-bye…

Down So Long

Bloged in by m. Sunday January 26, 2003

Spinning: Jewel – Spirit


I look to everybody but me to answer my prayers / ‘Til I saw an angel in a bathroom who said she saw no one worth saving anywhere /
And a blind man on the corner said it’s simple, like flipping a coin / Don’t mater what side it lands on if it’s someone else’s dime /
But I’ve been down so long / Ooh, it can’t be longer still / I’ve been down so long / That the end must be drawing near /
I suppose that I should apologise for breaking one of the promises that I made when the year started (the one about posting more regularly). I suppose so, but I won’t. Well, it has been a busy month thus far; work, school, some health worries, and a few other things have kept me away from sharing my thoughts with the i-net world. I have an issue that’s worrying me a little but which I feel unable to discuss at the moment. I will however advice anyone who reads this page (either regularly or accidentally) to stay informed, get a regular check-up with a physician, and never think that he/she is invincible/invulnerable; our bodies are the greatest creation in nature, yet they are fragile beyond explanation. Those who know me or care about me need not worry; I am being referred to the right specialist and hopefully this is only a false alarm. Hey, it is God’s calling in any case. I have been trough worse kinds of weather (my best friend’s battle with that virus that I prefer to not even mention; my mum’s illness in 1999; the surgery that I had to undergo in 1995), this might be only a call from above to remind me that I need to appreciate my life and enjoy every gasp of oxygen. Sometimes we do take too many things for granted…

On a lighter note, this semester’s seminars have turned out to be a lot better than I expected them. I had to make a change and add a seminar on 19th Century Thought and Culture in America, which has fascinated me to the extreme. The students attending the class are quite brilliant and have kept the discussions lively and engaging. The course is taught by a new professor who just arrived from Germany. She is incredibly nice and an intellectual that deserves plenty of recognition. I hope that she stays at UM and that her future courses are as interesting as this one. When it comes to my academic life I can honestly say that I am one happy fella.

The same cannot be said about my job, but that will hopefully change in July or September —it all depends on how soon I am able to rid myself of my existing debt. Things keep getting more demanding, objectives continue to escalate, the people that I supervise seem to become more incompetent with each day that passes, and my work hours seem to drag more than ever. To top things off, I just received my tax form for 2002 and —after making some rough calculations— I will need to pay some money to the government, instead of getting a refund. I looked at the damned paper and I wondered where all this supposed income went. I wonder how in the world I used to survive back in the day when I made six or seven bucks an hour. I know that our standards of living usually accommodate to our existing income, but I find it pretty absurd that my household had an income which went seriously past triple-k digits and we have practically nothing at the bank (and trust me, we don’t go out to dinner every night, we don’t drive Bentleys, and we don’t spend absurd amounts of money in clothing or trips). Most of it was taken away in taxes and unexpected emergencies ($400 co-payment to get a damned test!?). Anyway, I guess I am heading nowhere with this comment and I am probably sounding like a moron who complains too much instead of investing his money properly. I guess being middle class is a situation that we can never really escape. We wake up, we go to work, we return home exhausted, we pay taxes, we cover our bills and necessities, we see none of the cash that we supposedly made, we repeat the cycle till our dying day…

Changing subject, I am rediscovering some of my favourite CDs. It is so good to listen to some of my old Bob Seger, Neil Young, Brand New Heavies, John Coltrane, Bessie Smith, and many other albums. It is a shame that I barely have any time to play these records and enjoy them. I could write for hours about music and musicians and my passion about this artform, but I don’t have the space, energy, or time to do it right now. I have also decided that I am going to reduce my CD collection to a maximum of 500 pieces (I have over 1,500, many of which I got for free when I used to work in the music field). I will probably sell everything else or donate it to Goodwill. There is just too much stuff in here that I never get to hear or which I simply don’t care for anymore (some of these I can’t even believe that I own them). Maybe I will rank those albums that I keep and write some sort of short review, just for my own amusement. That’s if even get to eliminate the ones that I don’t want or need. God, please give me a 36 hour day (at least during the weekends).

Oh, and the weather has been very sucky down here in Miami. We never have winters; I don’t know where all this cold came from. The time has been perfect to stay at home under the covers watching movies. Gia and Two Can Play That Game were on tonight. I chose to watch them instead of catching up with my homework. Now I gotta go to bed; it is close to midnight and I have to be up at six. Repeat the cycle till I drop… Repeat the cycle till I go nuts… Repeat the cycle…

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