:: intellectualized ::

Go West, Life is peaceful there
Go West, In the open air
Go West, Where the skies are blue
Go West, This is what we’re gonna do
Go West, this is what we’re gonna do, Go West…

Off to California in a few hours. Only five days there, going with the family. On family business, going to meet my mom’s future in-laws. Oh, fun… Obviously won’t have much of a chance to go out and enjoy the clubs or scenery. Only can try to make the most of it.

No time to work on changes for this page. No time to even work upon changes in more important areas. No time to leave everything in order at the office. No time to get my ish together and work on my damned thesis and see if I get school out of the way. No time for time.

Want a whole week on my own again. Want to go somewhere nearby, like the Keys or West Palm. Want to read something light, even if it is a comic book. Want to forget about love, at least what I know of it at this very moment. Want to rediscover its thrill, maybe someday. Want to lose 15 pounds, 5 years, $15K worth of debt and school loans, a few acquaintances that bring me only headaches, several phone numbers, two million three hundred ninetyeight thousand six hundred and forty seven memories.

Need to get some sleep. Need to throw away these four week old contacts. Need some caffeine right now. Need to stop contradicting previous statements. Need a new job. Need a new direction in life. Need to get out of this hole. Need to find stability and balance. Need to rediscover me.

The toilet broke. The pizza that was delivered a few hours ago was pretty bad. The cat’s in her PMS mood. The women in this house seem to be in a funk as well. The one I love will never love me. The car’s tag expired two days ago. The Inspiration is gone.

Mad? Nah… Whiny? If you want to think so that’s your own beef. Sad? Not at all. Disconcerted? Indeed… Hopeful? Can’t say…

See ya all in about a week…